Rise Above


Some of the toughest moments in my life are the moments when I have to rise above. When it seems almost impossible to bite my tongue, walk away, or let it go and focus on my own path in this universe. With the internet making it nearly impossible to avoid negativity and forcing us to be in constant contact with other people, especially those we are not fond of, it can be exhausting. Facebook has given us the “unfollow” option, but the temptation to check on their page still lives on, thus so does your aggravation, disappointment, or even jealousy.  All of these […]

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Long Lost Friend


  As I entered the 6th grade, I was pleasantly surprised to find out it was finally the year we’d be given the opportunity to join band. I was never an athletic child: I was clumsy, I ran slow and weird, and I was lazy. Instead, I was the kid off humming to herself unaware of her surroundings and who knew every word to every song. It was no surprise to anyone that this was something I wanted to do. I had waited six long years for this.   We were allowed to choose which instrument we wanted, contingent on our parent’s final […]

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A miracle


  It’s starting to sink in that I am housebound for at least the next 6months. I have good days, and I have bad days. On a good day I go half to most of the day not feeling dizzy, nauseous, or scared. On a bad day, I feel ill and scared while lying on the couch listening to the hum of the air conditioning blasting out of its vents. The weather here in the northeast has been unbearable. Everyday feels like a humid Arizona summer day; having lived there, I can say that with confidence. The cement will scorch your feet, […]

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My first seizure

The night of 6/12/16 I was feeling nauseous and dizzy and had been for months. I was complaining a lot to my boyfriend as I sat down on the couch to watch our Redbox rental. All of the sudden I felt like I was going to pass out, and I had to fight for consciousness. I stood up even though I knew I should be sitting down just in case I passed out. I was telling myself to sit down, but for some reason I couldn’t. I told my boyfriend something along the lines of, “I don’t feel well…” as I had […]

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Well, there you have it. After 15 days in the hospital this summer, I have a diagnosis: Epilepsy. I don’t think I’ve ever done so much research and reading regarding a diagnosis in my life. I knew a girl in high school that had epilepsy, and she had to be removed from class when our fire drills went off due to the flashing lights. I always assumed that’s what it was; you had to just stay clear of flashing lights. After my experiences and reading, I now know different. It’s mind blowing to think that 1 in 29 people will get […]

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The past 2 weeks have been life-changing, to say the least. I’ll start off by saying that my health profile is similar to a 65-year-old woman. I’ve had to keep a list of my previous surgeries, medications, diagnoses, and allergies since I was about 20. While most young adults were paying off credit card debt from buying clothes and other silly things, I was paying off hospital bills month by month. I don’t have a personality for school, but every time I tried to sign up for classes, a new illness appeared, just like clockwork, which prevented me from pursuing it any further. […]

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Battery on empty


It’s been difficult this month to come up with a concept to write about let alone one that is interesting enough to read. I started a new medication, and I feel as if I have been living the same day like an episode of Groundhog’s Day for what seems like weeks now. I’m exhausted all of the time and even if I’m not, I still would rather be asleep. I’ve been desperately trying to make New Jersey my new home, but it seems impossible sometimes. I have no friends here, and I’ve been rejected countless times to jobs I’ve applied to. […]

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  I’ll be 29 in a couple weeks and to some this would be time to freak out and accept the death of my youth. You mean you only have ONE MORE YEAR until you’re the big 3-0?! I’m sorry! Your 20’s are coming to an end, how does that make you feel? Goodbye, youth! To others I’m still a baby in life and have plenty of time to hash out life’s challenges and joys. To me, most importantly, I look at getting older as getting better: better with experiences, compassion, wisdom, empathy, and love. Sure my body is slowly crumbling each […]

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Nutritional Yeast – The vegan’s cheese


Vegan: A person who does not eat or use animal products. The biggest upset I’ve heard from omnivores about the vegan diet is its lack of cheese and bacon. Thankfully, this way of eating has become more common and accepted in society, so there is a plethora of new meat and dairy replacements for everyone to try and enjoy. It used to be very difficult to locate these options, but now, due to our growing community and environmentalists sounding alarms, you can find many at your local grocery store. Nutritional Yeast, however, I have not found at my local grocery store, so I buy […]

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The Demons of Anxiety


I cannot remember a day of my life without anxiety. In kindergarten I was worried about coloring out of the lines or being imaginative because it would eventually lead to getting my shoulders pinched from my wicked teacher. Around first grade, I would escape my real world and exit to dreamland accompanied by my persistent humming. I would never know I was doing it; it was only until the adults around me would have enough Celine Dion- “Where Does My Heart Beat Now?” would I then stop momentarily. In 3rd grade I developed OCD and would wash my hands until they bled in fear I’d […]

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